In other news I've considered getting pizza delivery guys to buy me smokes on the way if they could, so that I could maybe start smoking. I assume that it’s a lot more fun when you've got time to prepare.

What I really don't like is being made to feel uncomfortable by someone else saying things about me that I don't want to think about. Like saying things about how my emotions work or how I hurt someone else.

You know that fear of anything you might have said before which doesn't quite fit with your idea of yourself (one guy on chat said that was your Ego) will be seen by another later. I'm quite scared of this. Which is why I don't talk much to people.